My passion has been horses since I was eight. I have just begun my show career, without a trainer. I know this is my desired path, but I feel that Satan is trying to stop me from fulfilling it. I know God revealed to me I would do well and he would bless me, but I keep running into these obstacles. First, I went from trainer-to-trainer and yet I realized I hated having someone 'boss' me about my riding. And now I am stuck on should I train myself and find a horse or should I go to a trainer again?
I know this is one of my many talents He has given me but I am confused on how to fulfill it. I know I have seen the jumper from my dreams - a gray gelding (male horse). I know he is the one but I feel I cannot afford him, because my mother has set me on a limit for $5000 and this horse is $32,000. I've cried to God and asked him why this can't be simpler and why can't I just have my horse? I need help but don't know where to go. Prayer and helpful advice are welcome.