I have a heavy heart today for my son. I visited him yesterday and he started babbling off the cool-aid speeches and how wonderful everything was going to be and utopia and blah blah blah . . . and I suddenly felt sick. This is a very intelligent young man that usually is babbling about what he learned in church last Sunday. I feel like if things go crazy and the non coolaid drinkers are singled out maybe my son will turn against me . .. turn me in. I suddenly feel leary of my own child. It's not a good feeling and I wish it would go away.

I feel like I need to contact one of those people that rescue adult children from cults and un-brainwash them.