Yes you [a former Christian] talked the talk,but you never changed inwardly,like a dog returning to it's vomit. As soon as someone get's hungry for spiritual things you want to block out the light.you should be ashamed of yourself,is it not enough that you stand under condemnation without trying to bring others down with you.Kinda reminds me of the Devil. You are not just content not to be a Christian, you Boast about it!!! I would say repent,but for you I think it is too late.You had your 30 pieces of silver. The Lord will confound you,just watch!!